Can't Nobody

Hello! :D

Oh yeah that's me. So, am I pretty? LOL, my cheeks are so chubby ryt haha. I dyed my hair to dark brown couple of weeks ago. Finally, after the long long long argument with my mom. I asked her permission to dye my hair, and at first, I wanted to dye it to maroon, burgundy or even blonde. But she strongly rejected. She said that I shouldn't have asked about that, and she told me how bad  dying your hair is. OMG LIKE SERIOUSLY, IT'S JUST A HAIR COLOR. She was totally freaking out. But I didn't give up lol, and then we made a deal. She only allows a natural color, like brown or black. Since my hair is originally black, so I dyed It brown :D

After I got back from the hair shop, my step dad seemed really surprised. He said I look prettier with my black hair ;~; I was kinda regretting it at first, but some of my friends said I'm cool with my brown hair hahahaha. Then my mom told me that she was freaking out because I have an asian face. And she said asian should stick with black hair lolwut. 

My brother, who is in Adelaide now, said that he likes my black hair more but I'm still looking good in this brown hair keke. He will go back to Bandung next Sunday, and yet we still haven't talk each other. Since the day he spilled out the coffee to my white givenchy flats ;~;

Well, he didn't even say sorry :( And actually, we still talk. But it's awkwaaard ;~; Should I go approach him first? Hmmph :\

And, school will start within more than a week. Oh year twelve. Sigh sigh sigh sigh. 

So, guess I'll see you later on my next post ;)

Go Away

Go Away by 2NE1

Hey! It's been a long time comin`, but we're here now! Yeah, it's 2NE1 comebaaaack. Nah, actually tomorrow is :D But they already released 2 MVs, Clap Your Hands and Go Away. So far, Go Away really caught my interest. It's amazing. Super duper awesome.

I've been a die hard fans of 2NE1 since the first time I know BIGBANG. I listened to Lollipop, then I got to know 2NE1. Since then, I freaking love these girls. And I can't explain how much I love Lee Chaerin lol. Do I sound like a fanboy? 8D Well, fans have been waiting for like, almost a year? Of course their comeback is the most anticipated for this year, because 2NE1 always brings up something unique and new. And yeah, once again, they did it. Two times 2NE1 is trending without a planning, and before the album released It already on the first position on the chart. And right after the album released, 6 songs from the album are topping the chart. OMG, I'm so proud of my girls ;~;

But, I'm not going to lie here. Well, I'm a die-hard fangirl, but I'm not going to try defend my idols. I'm a bit disappointed. The songs are good. Teddy really is a genious. But I just can't stand the `too much` autotune in the song. BUT, maybe It sounds better with those effects and autotune? And I'm still loving the songs though xD

Alright, back to the music video. Go Away. The song is sooo good. I freaking love the meaning. And you know what? One of the reasons I like 2NE1 is, how their songs meaning are full of girl power. And because Chaerin is the main girl here, that makes me love this music video even more. IMO, this is the best music video of 2NE1 so far. 

The story is about CL who just broke up from his boyfriend, which the role is played by Song Jaerim. After that, she really is suffering in depression. And OH! CL is a car racer here 8D When the day for them to race come, CL found out that Jaerim already have the replacement of her. CL wants to beat him on that race, but she failed. And when she came to Jaerim's house, she saw that he was with his new girlfriend. Then Jaerim dragged CL to the backside of his house. CL said that Jaerim wears the jacket that she bought for him when meeting other girls. And there goes Jaerim's anger, he slapped her FREAKING MORE THAN 3 TIMES. Okay he's hot, I admit. BUT HE SLAPPED CHAERIN, FOR GOD'S SAKE ;~;

After that, CL determined to beat him on the next race. She finally realized that he doesn't deserve her. Well, I think you should listen to the song and read the english translation by yourself :D

The ending was kinda confusing. I think they want us to make our own perception there. But to be honest, at first I thought that It's Jaerim's car that is crushed. But then I realized, CL's car is the black one. And that is the car that is crushed and burnt. So, CL's dead? But at the end, she's there with the other girls staring at the crushed and burning car, then left. 

After all, CL's acting was SUPERB. Amazing is not enough to express my feeling. I want to see her in a drama someday *w*

Last but not least, I love how this music video shows how talented Lee Chaerin is. She's not only the baddest female, but she can acts too. Seriously, my heart hurts when CL slapped by Jaerim, and I can feel the pain that she felt when she's lying on the ground after Jaerim left her. I cried too. And I am not easy to cry.

This makes me love Lee Chaerin even more. No matter what people say, she's the perfection to me. People say she's ugly, well, they should go to the doctor. SHE'S FUCKING GORGEOUS (IMO). And not even undergo a plastic surgery. She even looks damn pretty in the weirdest clothes. CL proofs that look is not always everything. She proofs that inner beauty makes your outter beauty shines bright. Her talent and charisma is a plus. Lee Chaerin, the one and only baddest female.

Haters?

You ain't shit without your crew.

I should have posted it on holiday but I was just...

I should have posted it on holiday but I was just...


Too lazy.


LOL.


Oh well, so how are you doing? It's been a long time since my last post, yes? :)


Even though I'm still on holiday, but yeah.. It feels like holiday is already over. So many activities that have to be done. Oh yeah `WE` here means me and my highschool mates yayyy!!! We were doing a charity concert last Thursday, and you know how much that we got? IT'S FREAKING 700 AUD OMG OMG OMG!!! LOL I sound too hyper. But you know, the concert was hella great! I did performing too :D So there's this acoustic club at school, and my friend Bree is the head of this club. You're asking what do we do? Performing unplugged songs of course haha. 


Oh and bytheway, at early July I went to Jakarta and Bali. You don't knoooowww how I freaking miss this place, esp Jakarta! Though I couldn't have the chance to meet my friends, but I still could make a phone call with them. So I was arrived at noon, and before I could get rid of my jet lag, me and my mom went to my dad's house. It was weird since I haven't meet him in such a very long time :(


Well, just skip it to the part when we arrived at Bali kay? Haha. Yeah so frankly saying, I went to Bali with my mom and dad. Weird much huh? I know it too, since they divorced and now they went there together with me. And FYI, my step mom and step brother went there too. So I don't know, maybe It was like... kinda family reunion? Eww, I swear with all of my soul that it was the most awkward family gathering I ever been to. And FYI too, my step brother is a total asshole. He just 2 years older than me, and 2 years younger than Rio. But he's totally different with Rio, a 180 degrees of difference. And after a fine three days at Bali, we went home. We here means me and my mom. I cried a lot at airport. Because of Rio, and because of my dad.


You know, I feel kinda weird, guilty, etcetera etcetera etcetera to my dad. The one reason is because I used to hate him so damn much. But deep in my heart I still have a love to him. Aaah I wish I could write down all of my feeling to this blog. But it's just too undescribable. I feel like a criminal because of my dad. You know, the criminal here means like, when you just done something bad. Oh no, it's worst. Gaaah I couldn't write it down ;__;
Moreover, I couldn't have a chance to meet Rio :(


After we got back to Adelaide, everything's back to normal. Chuck is doing fine too. And now, I'm officially mom's, while Rio is officially dad's. I don't know wether it's unfair or not, and I worry about Rio who will live with my dad and my step mom :\


OH WELL! You know, I still have to live my life here. My life is here now, not there anymore :D


And by the way, I take a part time job as a math tutor at Kev's house. I should teach them math equation for mid school. Just FYI they are so dumb, so it takes an extra effort for me to teach them ;___;


So yeah, that was how I spent my last two months lol. Year 12 will start in about one month, be ready and start a new session!


XOXO

#np Speechless

Ello-u!

It's been a long time ago since last I posted here. Yeah I know, I'm not often posting here. It's because I don't know what to write haha. So, how are you doing? :)
I've been doing right these past 9 months, and at July 5th, I'm going back to Jakarta. Not a long stay, only for four days. That's too short for me! I can't spend only four days at Indonesia, because I have to meet all of my old friends, my close relatives, and Asta too as well. But I couldn't against Mom's decision ya know, she has some things to do there. Including the meeting with my Dad, my biological Dad of course, not Chuck. I feel excited and scared at the same time. Excited that finally I'll be able to see my old friends, and scared about what will happen to Mom and Dad at the meeting. I'm scared that there'll be a fight between them. Not a physical fight I mean, because they absolutely won't do that. My Mom and Dad often arguing on the phone line, and I often being their mediator. That sucks, I hate being their mediator. And I'm afraid that the meeting will not succeed. :(
Besides that, these past two months I got some serious physical problem too. With double-D aka David Dwadson. I don't even know what kind of relationship that I have with him. He's my closest friend, the very first friend that I have when first time I came here. I would like to consider him as a boyfriend, but the fact is he is not. I don't even know why we keep acting like we're a girlfriend-boyfriend couple, and il a même volé mon premier baiser! And when I expected too much from him, it's really hurting. I know that's my fault, but who wouldn't do the same like me, after all that he did? It's like he flew me high away, then he bumped me on to the ground roughly. Hurt.
Such a shame that I still meet and talk to him everyday. I just can't avoid him, he's invading my mind and my life too much.

We're Unbreakable

i'm feeling like i want to post on my school day-off lol.
well, i just want to post my current #nowplaying on my playlist hahas. it's Fireflight's Unbreakable. such a mind-boosting song :)

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me
They hide just out of sight, can't face me in the light
They'll return but I'll be stronger

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can?t see to reach my destiny?
I want to take control but I know better

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Forget the fear it's just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just trust

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

when your life feels so sour

so uhm, okay. i just dunno where to start.

my life sucks, yes it definitely is.

oh wait, there's one good news. i'm going to Jakarta this July. yay for that, but wheew for this one. my dad offered to pick me up at the airport. and the problem is, i'm going to Jakarta with my mom. that's the biggest problem ever, because if the two meet, there'll be something that worse than world war 2 or even there'll be world war 3 itself.

couple days ago, my dad called me. well, actually he always calls me since i moved here. mom obviously doesn't like it. when dad tried to talk to mom, it always ends with mom shouting, screaming, cursing, and crying. and me should always be their mediator which i hate the most. standing between two people who you love most is hard, i know. 

so, the worst call from my dad is last saturday. he offered me to live with him in Jakarta. i know this may be a good decision for me to take, but there are lots of things that bothering my mind. first is, my dad's new wife. she definitely is hating me, because she never wanted a child that isn't her own child. i miss my old life, i miss Jakarta, i miss every thing! but how i survive living with her and her so-called-perfect son? 

on the other hand, i know my mom won't survive without me. even tho i know that she's happy with chuck now. but still, she needs me. 

before i moved here, they offered me the same choice and now they do that again. at that time, i decided to follow my mom. because of my teen-anger and i was so emotional at that time, and i felt like betrayed by my dad who already re-married. but somehow, i miss my dad. i know that it will feel great to meet him again and hug him tightly, but i'm not sure mom will let me. 

the hardest thing for now is, talking to mom for asking a chance to meet dad. i know it'll tough, but i have to stand strong. 

ritey rena, stand up, alive, and stop crying. :)

I SKIP SCHOOL TODAY

the title says it all, I SKIP SCHOOL TODAY HAHAH!!
it's just because of I overslept and couldn't catch the last bus. 
but yeah, you know, today there will be english literature and calculus. I think it's okay to skip those subjects for one day *evillaugh*.
oh and I told dave to sign my absence card lol. yesterday Mr. Etienne told me to meet him for the debate at next Monday, but yaaaaa I don't attend school for today. Maybee I'll call him later. 
And and and, Mom left house at five this morning when I was still flying in dream land. She left a post note on the fridge and ah another day when I home alone. How many times should I tell you mom that I can't cook well? Geez, maybe I will call delivery service later. I'm so hungry right now, and I'll go get my brunch. Bye ;D


well, jouissez de votre jour, peut-le être un grand merveilleux jour ❤

Espoir

Ils disent, "croyez en votre coeur."

Mais la vérité est, je ne peux pas même entendre mon honnêteté.

Que devrais-je faire?

Je sais que je devrais prendre la décision juste, mais c'est juste trop difficile.

Nouvelle Vie Scolaire

second post since 2010 xD
it's been a long time since last post, but yeah I've been busy doing stuffs. lol. actually, I'm not really in a good mood to write when holiday. but now, I really miss holiday :( school's going crazy because of Mr. Étienne. he gave me loooots of french work sheets. since this is the first week of school, I'm sure that there'll be more of homework :'((
anyway, I've learned how to cook lasagna. not really hard, it's pretty easy I think. but yeah, I'm not really good in cooking lol. 
 actually, I should be working on my work sheets right now.
á tout à l'heure et ayez une nuit agréable :D

Bonne Année

Hey!
Happy New Year!!
lol
my house is so crowded right now, but who cares? I just want to enjoy my own new year wiff my own way. haha, my mom's friends are so boring to talk to. so, all I want to do is waiting for Asta's call. yeahaaa~
oh ya, why don't we made a flashback for a whole 2009?

#1 on January, I got new handphone. A Sony Ericsson W950i. haha
#2 14th February, the best valentine day ever with Asta. He brought me a bunch of white roses eventhough I prefer red more than white and a boxful of white chocolate too. How cool is that? :D
#3 14th May, first time joined forum. and my first forum is SHINeendonesia.
#4 August, I stopped from school and saying goodbye with friends at school. preparing for Adelaide. 
#5 23rd September, SHINee's Key's and My birthday. and yes, we have the same date, lol. it was my best birthday ever too, you know because of Asta, Arin, and other folks. ahh I love them so muchies :)
#6 29th September, I arrived on my new home, Adelaide.


lol, that was what happened on my year. and now I can wait to know who is my secret santa on Sujunesia's NYGE. 
and talking about new year, it's still 10:00 PM in Indonesia now, so it hasn't been passed by midnight yet.
oh and I have resolutions for the next 2010 :D

change my bad habit, become more serious *srsly*, allowed to use brackett *haha*, get new laptop, and get a "A+" mark *all I got this far are only A, B and B+* rofl.

so, yeah l'espoir vous a un nouvel an hilarant.

once again, bonne année :D