Ello-u!
It's been a long time ago since last I posted here. Yeah I know, I'm not often posting here. It's because I don't know what to write haha. So, how are you doing? :)
I've been doing right these past 9 months, and at July 5th, I'm going back to Jakarta. Not a long stay, only for four days. That's too short for me! I can't spend only four days at Indonesia, because I have to meet all of my old friends, my close relatives, and Asta too as well. But I couldn't against Mom's decision ya know, she has some things to do there. Including the meeting with my Dad, my biological Dad of course, not Chuck. I feel excited and scared at the same time. Excited that finally I'll be able to see my old friends, and scared about what will happen to Mom and Dad at the meeting. I'm scared that there'll be a fight between them. Not a physical fight I mean, because they absolutely won't do that. My Mom and Dad often arguing on the phone line, and I often being their mediator. That sucks, I hate being their mediator. And I'm afraid that the meeting will not succeed. :(
Besides that, these past two months I got some serious physical problem too. With double-D aka David Dwadson. I don't even know what kind of relationship that I have with him. He's my closest friend, the very first friend that I have when first time I came here. I would like to consider him as a boyfriend, but the fact is he is not. I don't even know why we keep acting like we're a girlfriend-boyfriend couple, and il a même volé mon premier baiser! And when I expected too much from him, it's really hurting. I know that's my fault, but who wouldn't do the same like me, after all that he did? It's like he flew me high away, then he bumped me on to the ground roughly. Hurt.
Such a shame that I still meet and talk to him everyday. I just can't avoid him, he's invading my mind and my life too much.
