18 And Growing Up

Thanks to Aaron for taking this beautiful picture :)

Today is my 18th birthday. And I got pranked. Twice actually. 

When I woke up, my mom and step dad already gone. They left a note on the fridge saying that they were going to Salisbury until tomorrow so I'll be alone at home. They haven't said happy birthday yet to me. I felt a bit sad, but I tried to understand, maybe they forgot because they're busy. 

Around 10 AM, my friends called me. Bree, Sarah and Nate who were called. Bree was the first, then followed by Sarah, and Nate was the last. They told me that Aaron got a terrible accident yesterday, he injured his right leg and had fractured ribs, and he can barely move his body. They also said that Aaron could get a permanent paralysis too. I was shocked. I can hardly believe it since I just met him yesterday afternoon and he was completely doing fine. I decided to go to Aaron's house. When I reached there, there was nobody, it was all dark, and the door was unlocked. I came in but I still couldn't find anybody. When I tried to get out, somehow the door got locked. I felt a bit scared at that time ;~;

I decided to try the back door and went to the backyard. Just after I touched the knob and opened the back door to the backyard, someone threw the cake on my face. I couldn't see. I wiped all the cake, and I saw Bree standing in front of me and holding a cake. Then behind Bree I saw Aaron totally healty with no bruise. And I saw the others. Sarah, Jared, Meg, Tess, Nate, and Dave. Yes Dave. Doesn't he supposed to be in Canada now? I was thinking like that. But he was there. And he's back :)

They prepared everything in the backyard. The foods, the cake, and drinks. When I was about to slice a cake, they lift me and were going to threw me to the water. I struggled and I could get stand on my feet again. But suddenly they pushed me into the pool. I got wet. And I cried. I cried out of happiness. That was the best birthday party I've ever had. My friends are awesome :D

Aaron gave that small crystal stuffs shaped like candies and sweets, just like on the first photo. And Dave gave me a journal. Since he knew the last one that he gave me last year have already full. Bree and Sarah gave me a red beanie, which I've been looking for. I asked Tess, Nate, Jared and Meg where's my present jokingly LOL. I don't really want a present, their presence is the present :D But they said they' ll give it to me tomorrow, aww they are so kind :)

And in the evening I got home with Dave. Since my parents were away, Dave stayed for awhile. He was going to help me cook dinner, when my mom and step dad home all of a sudden. They brought home a lot of delicious dishes they got from my step dad's cousin. 

And that was the best dinner I've ever had with the whole family. And Dave too :')

My mom and dad gave me a new givenchy flats. A bit different, but same color. White. You know, my brother spilled coffee on my old givenchy ;~; Then after dinner I had a very nice phone calls with my friends in Jakarta and my brother. 

This is the best birthday ever. I got pranked twice. But I like it ROFL.

Oh wait.

Happy birthday too, Key! I like sharing the same birthday with you LOL. WYATB, twinbro. ROFL. 

I still can't stop smiling like a fool. This is the best moment of my life.

Clenching A Tight Fist - BEAST (비스트)


[Kikwang] I told you to go, to go away 
I replied back to you that I didn’t like you because I thought I wasn’t going to see you again


[Dongwoon]I wanted to embrace you with my two arms, but I couldn’t do that 
Because I thought I was going to cry first


[Hyunseung] We can live apart
There is a farewell for us too
Only the fake laugh is coming out 


[Doojoon] I will send you away
So hurry up and go to be happy
Clenching my fists tight, I started to cry


[Yoseob] We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that 


[Junhyung] After that, the dreams of me finding you repeats
Just looking at your back, you don’t smile back looking at me
I happily greet you even though there is no response from you
So that I won’t end up regretting after I wake up from this dream
It isn’t easy to fill up a blank space
The memories just shine a light to where you are
Words that I don’t even mean, I send them to you
Clenching my fists tight, Good luck to you


[Kikwang] I didn’t know it was this hard walking back home 
My heart is too stuffed up


[Doojoon] I need to live better
I need to fight this off
No matter how much I tell myself
It is so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind 


[Yoseob] We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that


[Hyunseung] Even though I tell myself that I will forget a girl like you
Even though I tell myself that I will never look at a girl like you
But again I can’t forget you 


[Yoseob] We loved each other, we really loved each other
Why are we breaking up like this?
(Let’s not break up)
Telling me that you couldn’t live without me,
Telling me that you were going to die without me
You who used to say such thing,
Where did you go? Where did you go?






CREDITS: aoistars @ B2STRISING.COM (ENG)




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This song is beautiful. Like seriously. I cried for real. And the lyrics was just asdf;alsdjflasjdf. I've been playing this song for like a million times. This song is so beautiful. 
"Clenching A Tight Fist is the best to listen to before you go to sleep" ― @Joker891219


:')

Mario Anggakara

A-Yo people! :)

So how are you doing? Fine? :D Well, I decided to try to post here more often heeehee. See that picture above? That's my beloved brother Mario Anggakara. And yeah, I never done this before, ya know, posting something about my brother. But this time it's different LOL. He's going to go back to Bandung next Sunday, and I surely will miss him a lot. We argued and haven't talked to each other since couple of days ago (ya know, that givenchy flats incident ;~;) and he didn't even say sorry, but I decided to go to talk to him first. I mean, it was just a shoes (though it's the first expensive stuff I bought with my own money ;~;), and he is more important than just a pair of shoes. 

He was born on 1988, oh yeah four years older than me :D December 9 is the time for him to blow the candles. And I just realized that he shares the same birthday with Choi Minho from SHINee LOL. He's a visual arts student. He likes Japanese anime, Japanese comics, Boys Like Girls, Paramore, Basket Ball, Sate Padang, black color, hats, guitar, drum, 2NE1 (Oh yeah he's a fanboy, thanks to me LOL), and Taylor Momsen. What I envy from him is, he can eat a lot without gaining weight ;~; He is really slender, and IMO his figure slightly more like a girl LOL. 

This was when we went to Semaphore Jetty. I'm at the right side, and he's at the left side. His butt ruined everything LOL. He's even skinnier than me ;~;

We don't look alike each other, and so many people have said that too. He looks really different from me, they thought we're not sibling but we're dating -_- 

After he get back to Bandung, I know we're not going to see each other in a long time, since he's going to live with my dad, and me with mom. So sad to know that, I'll miss him so bad :s

No matter what we've been through, he's the best brother in this whole universe.

Can't Nobody

Hello! :D

Oh yeah that's me. So, am I pretty? LOL, my cheeks are so chubby ryt haha. I dyed my hair to dark brown couple of weeks ago. Finally, after the long long long argument with my mom. I asked her permission to dye my hair, and at first, I wanted to dye it to maroon, burgundy or even blonde. But she strongly rejected. She said that I shouldn't have asked about that, and she told me how bad  dying your hair is. OMG LIKE SERIOUSLY, IT'S JUST A HAIR COLOR. She was totally freaking out. But I didn't give up lol, and then we made a deal. She only allows a natural color, like brown or black. Since my hair is originally black, so I dyed It brown :D

After I got back from the hair shop, my step dad seemed really surprised. He said I look prettier with my black hair ;~; I was kinda regretting it at first, but some of my friends said I'm cool with my brown hair hahahaha. Then my mom told me that she was freaking out because I have an asian face. And she said asian should stick with black hair lolwut. 

My brother, who is in Adelaide now, said that he likes my black hair more but I'm still looking good in this brown hair keke. He will go back to Bandung next Sunday, and yet we still haven't talk each other. Since the day he spilled out the coffee to my white givenchy flats ;~;

Well, he didn't even say sorry :( And actually, we still talk. But it's awkwaaard ;~; Should I go approach him first? Hmmph :\

And, school will start within more than a week. Oh year twelve. Sigh sigh sigh sigh. 

So, guess I'll see you later on my next post ;)

Go Away

Go Away by 2NE1

Hey! It's been a long time comin`, but we're here now! Yeah, it's 2NE1 comebaaaack. Nah, actually tomorrow is :D But they already released 2 MVs, Clap Your Hands and Go Away. So far, Go Away really caught my interest. It's amazing. Super duper awesome.

I've been a die hard fans of 2NE1 since the first time I know BIGBANG. I listened to Lollipop, then I got to know 2NE1. Since then, I freaking love these girls. And I can't explain how much I love Lee Chaerin lol. Do I sound like a fanboy? 8D Well, fans have been waiting for like, almost a year? Of course their comeback is the most anticipated for this year, because 2NE1 always brings up something unique and new. And yeah, once again, they did it. Two times 2NE1 is trending without a planning, and before the album released It already on the first position on the chart. And right after the album released, 6 songs from the album are topping the chart. OMG, I'm so proud of my girls ;~;

But, I'm not going to lie here. Well, I'm a die-hard fangirl, but I'm not going to try defend my idols. I'm a bit disappointed. The songs are good. Teddy really is a genious. But I just can't stand the `too much` autotune in the song. BUT, maybe It sounds better with those effects and autotune? And I'm still loving the songs though xD

Alright, back to the music video. Go Away. The song is sooo good. I freaking love the meaning. And you know what? One of the reasons I like 2NE1 is, how their songs meaning are full of girl power. And because Chaerin is the main girl here, that makes me love this music video even more. IMO, this is the best music video of 2NE1 so far. 

The story is about CL who just broke up from his boyfriend, which the role is played by Song Jaerim. After that, she really is suffering in depression. And OH! CL is a car racer here 8D When the day for them to race come, CL found out that Jaerim already have the replacement of her. CL wants to beat him on that race, but she failed. And when she came to Jaerim's house, she saw that he was with his new girlfriend. Then Jaerim dragged CL to the backside of his house. CL said that Jaerim wears the jacket that she bought for him when meeting other girls. And there goes Jaerim's anger, he slapped her FREAKING MORE THAN 3 TIMES. Okay he's hot, I admit. BUT HE SLAPPED CHAERIN, FOR GOD'S SAKE ;~;

After that, CL determined to beat him on the next race. She finally realized that he doesn't deserve her. Well, I think you should listen to the song and read the english translation by yourself :D

The ending was kinda confusing. I think they want us to make our own perception there. But to be honest, at first I thought that It's Jaerim's car that is crushed. But then I realized, CL's car is the black one. And that is the car that is crushed and burnt. So, CL's dead? But at the end, she's there with the other girls staring at the crushed and burning car, then left. 

After all, CL's acting was SUPERB. Amazing is not enough to express my feeling. I want to see her in a drama someday *w*

Last but not least, I love how this music video shows how talented Lee Chaerin is. She's not only the baddest female, but she can acts too. Seriously, my heart hurts when CL slapped by Jaerim, and I can feel the pain that she felt when she's lying on the ground after Jaerim left her. I cried too. And I am not easy to cry.

This makes me love Lee Chaerin even more. No matter what people say, she's the perfection to me. People say she's ugly, well, they should go to the doctor. SHE'S FUCKING GORGEOUS (IMO). And not even undergo a plastic surgery. She even looks damn pretty in the weirdest clothes. CL proofs that look is not always everything. She proofs that inner beauty makes your outter beauty shines bright. Her talent and charisma is a plus. Lee Chaerin, the one and only baddest female.

Haters?

You ain't shit without your crew.