We're Unbreakable

i'm feeling like i want to post on my school day-off lol.
well, i just want to post my current #nowplaying on my playlist hahas. it's Fireflight's Unbreakable. such a mind-boosting song :)

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me
They hide just out of sight, can't face me in the light
They'll return but I'll be stronger

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can?t see to reach my destiny?
I want to take control but I know better

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Forget the fear it's just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just trust

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

when your life feels so sour

so uhm, okay. i just dunno where to start.

my life sucks, yes it definitely is.

oh wait, there's one good news. i'm going to Jakarta this July. yay for that, but wheew for this one. my dad offered to pick me up at the airport. and the problem is, i'm going to Jakarta with my mom. that's the biggest problem ever, because if the two meet, there'll be something that worse than world war 2 or even there'll be world war 3 itself.

couple days ago, my dad called me. well, actually he always calls me since i moved here. mom obviously doesn't like it. when dad tried to talk to mom, it always ends with mom shouting, screaming, cursing, and crying. and me should always be their mediator which i hate the most. standing between two people who you love most is hard, i know. 

so, the worst call from my dad is last saturday. he offered me to live with him in Jakarta. i know this may be a good decision for me to take, but there are lots of things that bothering my mind. first is, my dad's new wife. she definitely is hating me, because she never wanted a child that isn't her own child. i miss my old life, i miss Jakarta, i miss every thing! but how i survive living with her and her so-called-perfect son? 

on the other hand, i know my mom won't survive without me. even tho i know that she's happy with chuck now. but still, she needs me. 

before i moved here, they offered me the same choice and now they do that again. at that time, i decided to follow my mom. because of my teen-anger and i was so emotional at that time, and i felt like betrayed by my dad who already re-married. but somehow, i miss my dad. i know that it will feel great to meet him again and hug him tightly, but i'm not sure mom will let me. 

the hardest thing for now is, talking to mom for asking a chance to meet dad. i know it'll tough, but i have to stand strong. 

ritey rena, stand up, alive, and stop crying. :)