18 And Growing Up

Thanks to Aaron for taking this beautiful picture :)

Today is my 18th birthday. And I got pranked. Twice actually. 

When I woke up, my mom and step dad already gone. They left a note on the fridge saying that they were going to Salisbury until tomorrow so I'll be alone at home. They haven't said happy birthday yet to me. I felt a bit sad, but I tried to understand, maybe they forgot because they're busy. 

Around 10 AM, my friends called me. Bree, Sarah and Nate who were called. Bree was the first, then followed by Sarah, and Nate was the last. They told me that Aaron got a terrible accident yesterday, he injured his right leg and had fractured ribs, and he can barely move his body. They also said that Aaron could get a permanent paralysis too. I was shocked. I can hardly believe it since I just met him yesterday afternoon and he was completely doing fine. I decided to go to Aaron's house. When I reached there, there was nobody, it was all dark, and the door was unlocked. I came in but I still couldn't find anybody. When I tried to get out, somehow the door got locked. I felt a bit scared at that time ;~;

I decided to try the back door and went to the backyard. Just after I touched the knob and opened the back door to the backyard, someone threw the cake on my face. I couldn't see. I wiped all the cake, and I saw Bree standing in front of me and holding a cake. Then behind Bree I saw Aaron totally healty with no bruise. And I saw the others. Sarah, Jared, Meg, Tess, Nate, and Dave. Yes Dave. Doesn't he supposed to be in Canada now? I was thinking like that. But he was there. And he's back :)

They prepared everything in the backyard. The foods, the cake, and drinks. When I was about to slice a cake, they lift me and were going to threw me to the water. I struggled and I could get stand on my feet again. But suddenly they pushed me into the pool. I got wet. And I cried. I cried out of happiness. That was the best birthday party I've ever had. My friends are awesome :D

Aaron gave that small crystal stuffs shaped like candies and sweets, just like on the first photo. And Dave gave me a journal. Since he knew the last one that he gave me last year have already full. Bree and Sarah gave me a red beanie, which I've been looking for. I asked Tess, Nate, Jared and Meg where's my present jokingly LOL. I don't really want a present, their presence is the present :D But they said they' ll give it to me tomorrow, aww they are so kind :)

And in the evening I got home with Dave. Since my parents were away, Dave stayed for awhile. He was going to help me cook dinner, when my mom and step dad home all of a sudden. They brought home a lot of delicious dishes they got from my step dad's cousin. 

And that was the best dinner I've ever had with the whole family. And Dave too :')

My mom and dad gave me a new givenchy flats. A bit different, but same color. White. You know, my brother spilled coffee on my old givenchy ;~; Then after dinner I had a very nice phone calls with my friends in Jakarta and my brother. 

This is the best birthday ever. I got pranked twice. But I like it ROFL.

Oh wait.

Happy birthday too, Key! I like sharing the same birthday with you LOL. WYATB, twinbro. ROFL. 

I still can't stop smiling like a fool. This is the best moment of my life.

Clenching A Tight Fist - BEAST (비스트)


[Kikwang] I told you to go, to go away 
I replied back to you that I didn’t like you because I thought I wasn’t going to see you again


[Dongwoon]I wanted to embrace you with my two arms, but I couldn’t do that 
Because I thought I was going to cry first


[Hyunseung] We can live apart
There is a farewell for us too
Only the fake laugh is coming out 


[Doojoon] I will send you away
So hurry up and go to be happy
Clenching my fists tight, I started to cry


[Yoseob] We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that 


[Junhyung] After that, the dreams of me finding you repeats
Just looking at your back, you don’t smile back looking at me
I happily greet you even though there is no response from you
So that I won’t end up regretting after I wake up from this dream
It isn’t easy to fill up a blank space
The memories just shine a light to where you are
Words that I don’t even mean, I send them to you
Clenching my fists tight, Good luck to you


[Kikwang] I didn’t know it was this hard walking back home 
My heart is too stuffed up


[Doojoon] I need to live better
I need to fight this off
No matter how much I tell myself
It is so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind 


[Yoseob] We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that


[Hyunseung] Even though I tell myself that I will forget a girl like you
Even though I tell myself that I will never look at a girl like you
But again I can’t forget you 


[Yoseob] We loved each other, we really loved each other
Why are we breaking up like this?
(Let’s not break up)
Telling me that you couldn’t live without me,
Telling me that you were going to die without me
You who used to say such thing,
Where did you go? Where did you go?






CREDITS: aoistars @ B2STRISING.COM (ENG)




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This song is beautiful. Like seriously. I cried for real. And the lyrics was just asdf;alsdjflasjdf. I've been playing this song for like a million times. This song is so beautiful. 
"Clenching A Tight Fist is the best to listen to before you go to sleep" ― @Joker891219


:')

Mario Anggakara

A-Yo people! :)

So how are you doing? Fine? :D Well, I decided to try to post here more often heeehee. See that picture above? That's my beloved brother Mario Anggakara. And yeah, I never done this before, ya know, posting something about my brother. But this time it's different LOL. He's going to go back to Bandung next Sunday, and I surely will miss him a lot. We argued and haven't talked to each other since couple of days ago (ya know, that givenchy flats incident ;~;) and he didn't even say sorry, but I decided to go to talk to him first. I mean, it was just a shoes (though it's the first expensive stuff I bought with my own money ;~;), and he is more important than just a pair of shoes. 

He was born on 1988, oh yeah four years older than me :D December 9 is the time for him to blow the candles. And I just realized that he shares the same birthday with Choi Minho from SHINee LOL. He's a visual arts student. He likes Japanese anime, Japanese comics, Boys Like Girls, Paramore, Basket Ball, Sate Padang, black color, hats, guitar, drum, 2NE1 (Oh yeah he's a fanboy, thanks to me LOL), and Taylor Momsen. What I envy from him is, he can eat a lot without gaining weight ;~; He is really slender, and IMO his figure slightly more like a girl LOL. 

This was when we went to Semaphore Jetty. I'm at the right side, and he's at the left side. His butt ruined everything LOL. He's even skinnier than me ;~;

We don't look alike each other, and so many people have said that too. He looks really different from me, they thought we're not sibling but we're dating -_- 

After he get back to Bandung, I know we're not going to see each other in a long time, since he's going to live with my dad, and me with mom. So sad to know that, I'll miss him so bad :s

No matter what we've been through, he's the best brother in this whole universe.

Can't Nobody

Hello! :D

Oh yeah that's me. So, am I pretty? LOL, my cheeks are so chubby ryt haha. I dyed my hair to dark brown couple of weeks ago. Finally, after the long long long argument with my mom. I asked her permission to dye my hair, and at first, I wanted to dye it to maroon, burgundy or even blonde. But she strongly rejected. She said that I shouldn't have asked about that, and she told me how bad  dying your hair is. OMG LIKE SERIOUSLY, IT'S JUST A HAIR COLOR. She was totally freaking out. But I didn't give up lol, and then we made a deal. She only allows a natural color, like brown or black. Since my hair is originally black, so I dyed It brown :D

After I got back from the hair shop, my step dad seemed really surprised. He said I look prettier with my black hair ;~; I was kinda regretting it at first, but some of my friends said I'm cool with my brown hair hahahaha. Then my mom told me that she was freaking out because I have an asian face. And she said asian should stick with black hair lolwut. 

My brother, who is in Adelaide now, said that he likes my black hair more but I'm still looking good in this brown hair keke. He will go back to Bandung next Sunday, and yet we still haven't talk each other. Since the day he spilled out the coffee to my white givenchy flats ;~;

Well, he didn't even say sorry :( And actually, we still talk. But it's awkwaaard ;~; Should I go approach him first? Hmmph :\

And, school will start within more than a week. Oh year twelve. Sigh sigh sigh sigh. 

So, guess I'll see you later on my next post ;)