Dear Mom.

I know that you probably forget because you're busy with your job and all but today's Mother's Day in Indonesia so..

Mom, it's been a tough year for us, especially for you. You are the strongest lady I've ever seen, the most person I look up to, and you've always done your best as a mother for me and Mario. Even though I am nowhere close to the perfect daughter as you've expected me to be. There were times when I talked back to you, or when I didn't listen to your advice, when I made wrong choices, when I unintentionally let out hurtful words to you. I never meant any of those to hurt your feelings, even if I did, it was none of my intention. You know how teenagers are c: But despite of those, you always overwatch and protect me. I want to sincerely thank you for raising me to be the person I am now, for making sure that I grew up with so much love and care. 

I'm a grown up now, and almost not a teenager anymore. I still can't picture how my life will be when I start to not depending on you, though I'm beginning to learn for it now that I live far away from home for college. I still can't cook properly, sorry mom :c But don't worry I'll watch what I eat, and my roommate often cooks for the both of us, she understands my condition hehe. I promise I'll take care of my health, to get enough sleep and rest. I know you'll be worried sick if I fall sick and I don't want that, I want you to live happily and enjoy the new life you just got. Please be happy with Charles, give him the same love as much as you give to me. If he happens to do something bad to you just tell me so that I can kick his chubby ass loljk. I know he loves you just as much as I do.

Mom, I'm gonna be the person you're most proud of. Please be healthy and live well, just wait for that one day when you see me saying proudly "That's my daughter."

I love you Mom, more than everything. Happy Mother's Day ♥

Forgive.

No matter how worst the mistakes they've made in the past, everyone deserves to be forgiven. 

Living with anger and hatred for so long didn't make my life any better. I despised him with all of might and I even didn't feel like looking at his face anymore cause it would bring back the painful memories. They've been putting on an act all those times, and she was the only one in pain for covering his faults. I was fucking pissed off to no end when she revealed what had been happening. 

Holding on the grudge didn't change everything. In fact it started to tire me out. It has passed and the past can't be fixed. What is it to me anyway. Do I really wish him to be hurt as much as we did? Do I really wish him to finally realize he was wrong and crawl back to us begging for a forgiveness? That still won't change any of the ruined pieces. The once perfectly completed lego had been blown away, shattered and broken. We're now still gathering the remaining pieces and rebuild it back.

Now we're already on a completely different path. I just want to say thanks for letting us go. I wish you to have a nice life.

The huge scar you've left on us, it has healed in times. But the memories will forever remain.

Back.

It's been a week since I came back to college! 

And I'm back to face the usual hectic college life. The non stop assignments are messing up my sleeping schedule even worse. Classes start 9 to 2 or 4, or 6 or 7 when I have extra classes. Sobs I should hang on until the holidays come ughhh happy timessss why do you seem so long.

Anyway, I want to be able to blog regularly again but I sometimes don't have the feel to do so because of the assigments. I should try! And it's been ages since I post the regular post owipqopoq the last time I came here was just to rant. 

Eid mubarak at Aunt's house was a lot fun, the fooodsssssss omg I think I gained some pounds that time. My chubby cheeks were getting chubbier than ever lol but hey I'm back to normal rn :) My mom still at my aunt's place so I hope she'll be back soon safely. 

I still suck at cooking. My housemate is pretty good at cooking fortunately, but she can only do several dishes so we'll sometimes have three same menus in a week haha I don't mind though as long as it's edible ;u; 

It's gekikara ramen! Tastes dangerously good lol it's so spicy and a bit hot but it doesn't burn your tongue. Instant ramen of course, do you expect me to cook this by myself -_- Even I suck at cooking instant ramen orz the soup was all gone cause it lacked so much water.

When I thought gekikara tastes the bestest my housemate made udon noodles cause her family packed her the ingredients and I immediately take those words back lol. She made a huge portion for us \o/ Asian foods are the bestest \o/

Say hello to my new baby!

I get this few months ago, a samsung galaxy tab s1. My mom suddenly brought this home for me I didn't even know why lol. My current phone is getting old. I don't really often use this one though, cause when you make a phone call it's really loud and you have to use an earpiece or people will hear the whole conversation. So for now I'm still using my lubly E63. I still have to save money to buy new cam though :3

Gotta spend another day at home to rest my sprained ankle!

065 - Vixen and Porch

Sigh.

I don't really know when did we start to call each other Vixen and Porch. She calls me Porch, and I call her Vixen. LOL. So actually, there's this new neighbor who has just moved in to the house across mine, and he's the reason why Bree started calling me Porch. He is three years older than me, and seems quite friendly. But I take that words back, he's such a freak. You don't even want to know the rest of the story.

Anyway, mom and Charles have been pretty busy with their jobs, they leave in the morning and home almost midnight. Sigh. My brother has been staying here for almost a week now, but he's busy taking pictures, he'll be leaving at 4 and go home at 10. Not that he uses all that hours to take pictures only, he meets his colleagues and some photographers for their project, I guess? He'll be leaving for Auckland next month because he got a job as a professional photographer for a magazine there. So yeah, I'm always alone at home. Vixen sometimes come over though, and the last time she came we baked cappuccino buns. She's really a good cook.

I want to personally thank Vixen for helping me these past days because I'm not good in the kitchen. Sigh. THANK YOU VIXEN BREE.

It's been ages since the last time I met Chao, but yesterday he came to Adelaide all the way from Perth. And brought me this cute bag. He said he saw this somewhere in CT, and looking at the eiffel pattern on it kind of reminded him of me :'>

SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SONG AND MUSIC VIDEO. LSDJFLKASDFASDF. Bommie unnie did an all kill in all online music charts too. Correction. DOUBLE ALL KILL. Congratulations Bommie unnie, I know you really deserve it <3333 Teddy is such a genius. Now I'm really looking forward to 2NE1's comeback \o/

Anyway, enjoy your easter holidays! Did you hunt eggs? :>

Happy easter! Finals in next week!

055 - La Saint Valentin

Why only on valentine's day when you can actually express the feeling any day and any time?

It's the day of love so what about the other 364 days? 

Whatever, I'll still love you guys all along the 365 days Mom, Dad, Mario, friends, and... David.

Thanks Dave, for the great two years you've been spending with me. You were like the only person I know well the first time I moved here, and you helped me through the hard times. I felt really thankful to you, and glad to meet such a nice and awesome person like you, as I developed feelings for you. It didn't go well though, you know, some best-friend to lover stories aren't ended up good but... oh well, I'm glad with our relationship now. 

I don't mind if you read this though. I know you don't know I have this blog lol but if you get it from Bree or others well yeah I guess it's okay :D I love you Dee, but it's not the same love I used to feel towards you. Il est plus comme un amour platonique que je ressens pour vous. Tu me fais la fille la plus heureuse sur la terre pour avoir un meilleur ami comme vous :)

p.s : j'aime votre chocolat blanc ❤

054 - Sourire

I'm not the kind of person who likes to camwhore. 

Because I know it won't come out good, no matter what. Maybe it's just because I'm not that pretty? Whatever.

Here I present you a selca of me to puke on.

And I love making weird faces.

LOL.

Anyway I finished my presentation about how radioactive decay works pretty good today, and it's really worth the hard work, since I stayed up until midnight to prepare all of that. I got an A :D

It's only Tuesday and I really want weekend to come faster alsdjkf I need more time to rest :\ Last weekend was pretty busy though, I thought we'll have the charity concert on Sunday, but they moved it on Saturday so yeah -_- I got an ME class to catch that day, so right after I finish I rushed towards Norwood. It was fun though :)

Chao is coming over Adelaide tomorrow. We'll shop around, along with Nate and Meg, and I get to accompany him shopping for the Chinese New Year. 

Oh, Charles had a trip to Bandung for a week. I had expected him to bring a lot of Indonesian foods but he didn't -_- I've been craving for Cheese and Banana Bolen though :s 

And,

I promise to go sleep early again today :D

Shopping spree tomorrow yay!

051 - Sick

Sore throat this whole day. Mom hasn't even home yet THIS IS ALMOST FREAKING MIDNIGHT I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW KAY. She's out of town for her work and supposed to be back by dinner but yeah -_- CHARLES WHERE ARE YOU ;~; My head is splitting and nobody's home alsdkjf I COULD DIE RIGHT NOW. Why everybody isn't home when I fall sick ;~;

Oh this is practically my first post in 2011. I d g a f. I'M SLEEPY. AND TIRED. AND HUNGRY.

050 - Nouvelle Annee

It's finally come, 2011 is just a couple hours away now. Bye 2010, and thank you. For teaching me how to finally let go of something and move on. Ever heard of time heals?

I've been through so maaaaaany things within this year. Met awesome people and made friends, went to Waitemata, visited Bali, met old friends, my brother, my dad. I laughed like crazy, cried the hell out and many other things. I had the best birthday ever, I had my first performance on a big stage, I had the best Christmas dinner, I went to an audition and failed (lol -_-). And oh, I got my part time job for the very first time :) It was so amazing to feel that I can earn my own money and be independent. Not forgetting that I got my driving license too, just a couple weeks after my 18th birthday. And I drove all the way to Perth alone xD

My mom's marriage with Charles is the greatest things ever happened this year. She finally get over my dad and gets married with someone who truly and whole-heartedly loves her. I still remember the time she'd cry and throw things whenever my dad call, and I would always be the mediator between them. The hard times she had, was finally over. Charles Etienne Bass is a good guy. He's such a great buddy xD

And oh, this is my last post in 2010 right xD I want to take a break for 2011, keeping myself away from internet, updating tumblr, blogspot, twitter, youtube, including my fangirl life lol. I maybe will still go online, but not really often, unless on holiday or if I really have a free time. I want to concentrate on school now, getting my good grades back and I want to graduate with an excellent result and then get myself a place in university. FACULTY OF ENGINEERING is my goal. I have to get a freaking good grades and prove to those people that I CAN MAKE IT :D

Besides, doctor's verdict says I have some health problems, and I should get ENOUGH rest, which I've never done in 2010, I slept like maximum 5 hours a day -_- So that's why, I'm keeping myself from internet. Now my life is just school, sleep, pray, study, eat. Until I graduate and get accepted in university.

So, new year's resolutions: GRADUATE WITH EXCELLENT GRADES, GO TO UNIVERSITY, FACULTY OF ENGINEERING CLASS OF 2011, GO TO PARIS/KOREA, MEET 2NE1 XD

I hope everything will get better in 2011. I don't feel regret on what I've done this year, because I can't do nothing about it. I made mistakes, I screwed things, but all I can do is let go and move on. Because life goes on.

Happy new year's eve! Welcome new year, new life, new adventure, new me! :D

Vous voir l'annee prochaine <3

049 - Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas! ♥

I feel so relieved that today's performance went well. 

Uh actually, Penn forgot some of his lines, but it was still okay, we could make it up yay! So many people were coming with their kids, and the kids were just alsdjkf too cute xD

The profit we got from the ticket selling is for charity and good deeds :)

And then we had dinner in Dave's house, it was fuuuun. Friends from school, friends of friends, neighbors, family of friends, they were all coming. 

I got to babysit Dave's little brother, Jeremy, and he is only seveeen lol. He couldn't speak english well, since he grew up in France, so I should stay beside him while Dave was talking to guests. The Christmas tree was beautiful, too bad that I didn't get a chance to take a photo of it, because I left my camera ;~;

The best part is the food. They got the best food out thereeee, OMG Dave's mom is such a great cook alsdkjflf the tartine <3 It's way much different from the tartine that Charles cooks, plus it doesn't smell like foot xD

That was the best dinner of my life, best day of 2010 after my birthday. I would like everyday to be like today, when you can see happy smiling faces and hear the sound of laughter all around :)

Anyway, have a great holiday~♥

ParaVersa

drawn by this girl :

Her name is Arin. She's my cousin and my close friend. 

So, we were chatting on msn because I need some help for doing my chem papers since tomorrow is my exam (I'm not even sleeping yet around this time rofl). She's really good on science and math so that's why ;D

And when we finished she showed me the doodle she drawn at her school. It's from 2NE1's It Hurts music video, if you don't realize xD

She drew it on the floor lol. She said she drew it just for fun but realized it's pretty cute then she took a picture of it. I first thought it was like a toddler's drawing rofl. 

But I think it's pretty cute too :3

18 And Growing Up

Thanks to Aaron for taking this beautiful picture :)

Today is my 18th birthday. And I got pranked. Twice actually. 

When I woke up, my mom and step dad already gone. They left a note on the fridge saying that they were going to Salisbury until tomorrow so I'll be alone at home. They haven't said happy birthday yet to me. I felt a bit sad, but I tried to understand, maybe they forgot because they're busy. 

Around 10 AM, my friends called me. Bree, Sarah and Nate who were called. Bree was the first, then followed by Sarah, and Nate was the last. They told me that Aaron got a terrible accident yesterday, he injured his right leg and had fractured ribs, and he can barely move his body. They also said that Aaron could get a permanent paralysis too. I was shocked. I can hardly believe it since I just met him yesterday afternoon and he was completely doing fine. I decided to go to Aaron's house. When I reached there, there was nobody, it was all dark, and the door was unlocked. I came in but I still couldn't find anybody. When I tried to get out, somehow the door got locked. I felt a bit scared at that time ;~;

I decided to try the back door and went to the backyard. Just after I touched the knob and opened the back door to the backyard, someone threw the cake on my face. I couldn't see. I wiped all the cake, and I saw Bree standing in front of me and holding a cake. Then behind Bree I saw Aaron totally healty with no bruise. And I saw the others. Sarah, Jared, Meg, Tess, Nate, and Dave. Yes Dave. Doesn't he supposed to be in Canada now? I was thinking like that. But he was there. And he's back :)

They prepared everything in the backyard. The foods, the cake, and drinks. When I was about to slice a cake, they lift me and were going to threw me to the water. I struggled and I could get stand on my feet again. But suddenly they pushed me into the pool. I got wet. And I cried. I cried out of happiness. That was the best birthday party I've ever had. My friends are awesome :D

Aaron gave that small crystal stuffs shaped like candies and sweets, just like on the first photo. And Dave gave me a journal. Since he knew the last one that he gave me last year have already full. Bree and Sarah gave me a red beanie, which I've been looking for. I asked Tess, Nate, Jared and Meg where's my present jokingly LOL. I don't really want a present, their presence is the present :D But they said they' ll give it to me tomorrow, aww they are so kind :)

And in the evening I got home with Dave. Since my parents were away, Dave stayed for awhile. He was going to help me cook dinner, when my mom and step dad home all of a sudden. They brought home a lot of delicious dishes they got from my step dad's cousin. 

And that was the best dinner I've ever had with the whole family. And Dave too :')

My mom and dad gave me a new givenchy flats. A bit different, but same color. White. You know, my brother spilled coffee on my old givenchy ;~; Then after dinner I had a very nice phone calls with my friends in Jakarta and my brother. 

This is the best birthday ever. I got pranked twice. But I like it ROFL.

Oh wait.

Happy birthday too, Key! I like sharing the same birthday with you LOL. WYATB, twinbro. ROFL. 

I still can't stop smiling like a fool. This is the best moment of my life.

Mario Anggakara

A-Yo people! :)

So how are you doing? Fine? :D Well, I decided to try to post here more often heeehee. See that picture above? That's my beloved brother Mario Anggakara. And yeah, I never done this before, ya know, posting something about my brother. But this time it's different LOL. He's going to go back to Bandung next Sunday, and I surely will miss him a lot. We argued and haven't talked to each other since couple of days ago (ya know, that givenchy flats incident ;~;) and he didn't even say sorry, but I decided to go to talk to him first. I mean, it was just a shoes (though it's the first expensive stuff I bought with my own money ;~;), and he is more important than just a pair of shoes. 

He was born on 1988, oh yeah four years older than me :D December 9 is the time for him to blow the candles. And I just realized that he shares the same birthday with Choi Minho from SHINee LOL. He's a visual arts student. He likes Japanese anime, Japanese comics, Boys Like Girls, Paramore, Basket Ball, Sate Padang, black color, hats, guitar, drum, 2NE1 (Oh yeah he's a fanboy, thanks to me LOL), and Taylor Momsen. What I envy from him is, he can eat a lot without gaining weight ;~; He is really slender, and IMO his figure slightly more like a girl LOL. 

This was when we went to Semaphore Jetty. I'm at the right side, and he's at the left side. His butt ruined everything LOL. He's even skinnier than me ;~;

We don't look alike each other, and so many people have said that too. He looks really different from me, they thought we're not sibling but we're dating -_- 

After he get back to Bandung, I know we're not going to see each other in a long time, since he's going to live with my dad, and me with mom. So sad to know that, I'll miss him so bad :s

No matter what we've been through, he's the best brother in this whole universe.

Can't Nobody

Hello! :D

Oh yeah that's me. So, am I pretty? LOL, my cheeks are so chubby ryt haha. I dyed my hair to dark brown couple of weeks ago. Finally, after the long long long argument with my mom. I asked her permission to dye my hair, and at first, I wanted to dye it to maroon, burgundy or even blonde. But she strongly rejected. She said that I shouldn't have asked about that, and she told me how bad  dying your hair is. OMG LIKE SERIOUSLY, IT'S JUST A HAIR COLOR. She was totally freaking out. But I didn't give up lol, and then we made a deal. She only allows a natural color, like brown or black. Since my hair is originally black, so I dyed It brown :D

After I got back from the hair shop, my step dad seemed really surprised. He said I look prettier with my black hair ;~; I was kinda regretting it at first, but some of my friends said I'm cool with my brown hair hahahaha. Then my mom told me that she was freaking out because I have an asian face. And she said asian should stick with black hair lolwut. 

My brother, who is in Adelaide now, said that he likes my black hair more but I'm still looking good in this brown hair keke. He will go back to Bandung next Sunday, and yet we still haven't talk each other. Since the day he spilled out the coffee to my white givenchy flats ;~;

Well, he didn't even say sorry :( And actually, we still talk. But it's awkwaaard ;~; Should I go approach him first? Hmmph :\

And, school will start within more than a week. Oh year twelve. Sigh sigh sigh sigh. 

So, guess I'll see you later on my next post ;)

#np Speechless

Ello-u!

It's been a long time ago since last I posted here. Yeah I know, I'm not often posting here. It's because I don't know what to write haha. So, how are you doing? :)
I've been doing right these past 9 months, and at July 5th, I'm going back to Jakarta. Not a long stay, only for four days. That's too short for me! I can't spend only four days at Indonesia, because I have to meet all of my old friends, my close relatives, and Asta too as well. But I couldn't against Mom's decision ya know, she has some things to do there. Including the meeting with my Dad, my biological Dad of course, not Chuck. I feel excited and scared at the same time. Excited that finally I'll be able to see my old friends, and scared about what will happen to Mom and Dad at the meeting. I'm scared that there'll be a fight between them. Not a physical fight I mean, because they absolutely won't do that. My Mom and Dad often arguing on the phone line, and I often being their mediator. That sucks, I hate being their mediator. And I'm afraid that the meeting will not succeed. :(
Besides that, these past two months I got some serious physical problem too. With double-D aka David Dwadson. I don't even know what kind of relationship that I have with him. He's my closest friend, the very first friend that I have when first time I came here. I would like to consider him as a boyfriend, but the fact is he is not. I don't even know why we keep acting like we're a girlfriend-boyfriend couple, and il a même volé mon premier baiser! And when I expected too much from him, it's really hurting. I know that's my fault, but who wouldn't do the same like me, after all that he did? It's like he flew me high away, then he bumped me on to the ground roughly. Hurt.
Such a shame that I still meet and talk to him everyday. I just can't avoid him, he's invading my mind and my life too much.

when your life feels so sour

so uhm, okay. i just dunno where to start.

my life sucks, yes it definitely is.

oh wait, there's one good news. i'm going to Jakarta this July. yay for that, but wheew for this one. my dad offered to pick me up at the airport. and the problem is, i'm going to Jakarta with my mom. that's the biggest problem ever, because if the two meet, there'll be something that worse than world war 2 or even there'll be world war 3 itself.

couple days ago, my dad called me. well, actually he always calls me since i moved here. mom obviously doesn't like it. when dad tried to talk to mom, it always ends with mom shouting, screaming, cursing, and crying. and me should always be their mediator which i hate the most. standing between two people who you love most is hard, i know. 

so, the worst call from my dad is last saturday. he offered me to live with him in Jakarta. i know this may be a good decision for me to take, but there are lots of things that bothering my mind. first is, my dad's new wife. she definitely is hating me, because she never wanted a child that isn't her own child. i miss my old life, i miss Jakarta, i miss every thing! but how i survive living with her and her so-called-perfect son? 

on the other hand, i know my mom won't survive without me. even tho i know that she's happy with chuck now. but still, she needs me. 

before i moved here, they offered me the same choice and now they do that again. at that time, i decided to follow my mom. because of my teen-anger and i was so emotional at that time, and i felt like betrayed by my dad who already re-married. but somehow, i miss my dad. i know that it will feel great to meet him again and hug him tightly, but i'm not sure mom will let me. 

the hardest thing for now is, talking to mom for asking a chance to meet dad. i know it'll tough, but i have to stand strong. 

ritey rena, stand up, alive, and stop crying. :)

tea, anybody?

afternoon eh?
my life seems getting boring here -__-
oke jadi rencana liburan yang udah gue susun dengan sempurna hancur berantakan. entah itu karena mood gue, telepon dari bokap gue, atau gara-gara Dave. akhir-akhir ini mood gue udah kaya roller coaster, up and down easily. apa karena efek telepon dari bokap gue juga ya?
bokap gue makin lama makin sucks aja deh. ngapain sih dia nelpon gue mulu? topicnya pun hanya sekedar itu-itu aja, gimana sekolah gue, apa makan gue baik, apa gue cukup tidur, apa gue seneng, gimana kabar gue dan temen gue, blah blah. is he trying to get me back? oh c'mon, he abandoned me then now he shows that he does care a lot about me. wtf! i think i'm going to change my skype account so that he cant contact me again. i will put that on my next list!
hal yang makin memperparah liburan gue adalah, Dave yang selalu break promise. ohmy, i dont want to talk about him right now.
satu-satunya hal yang bisa gue harapkan adalah Asta. oh, chatted with him could heal my bad mood lol. he's such a patient person who can calm me down. he's the best guy ever exist on this whole world right after Changsun and Hyukjae *rofl*
satu lagi yang memperparah liburan gue adalah sodara tiri gue. oh my god, if killing people is make sense, i'll kill him for sure! such an annoying immature boy, and he keeps disturbing me. gue ga mau ngadu sama bokap, karena gue juga males sama bokap -__- mom, help me pleeeease? my mom is always busy with the preparation of her wed with Chuck. yea, Chuck will be my new dad! how cool is it? My last name would change into Bass, Renata Elika Bass will be my new name on my schools data. lol.
ahaha, see you next time

xoxo

Randoms

ahhh~

hai :D
you know, it's almost 11.30 PM at my place now. gatau kenapa gue selalu aja betah melek sampe malem. mungkin salah satunya karena gue nungguin telepon dari Asta, lol. you know what? I do miss him a lot! udah hampir tiga bulan gue ga ketemu dia. dia berubah ga ya? lol, meskipun sedikit kemungkinan bahwa kurun waktu tiga bulan bisa merubah seseorang. 

minggu ini adalah minggu-minggu paling terberat. kenapa ya bokap gue masih suka nelpon-nelpon? kan gue ga nyaman aja kalo dia nelpon mulu. dan sodara tiri gue, yaitu anak dari tante Ruth-istri bokap yang baru, suka ngeselin banget di YM ato MSN. harusnya emang gue delete tuh dari list gue, tapi ga enak. pasti dia nanti ngadu ke bokap dan di telpon bokap gue berbicara ini-itu bla bla bla. jadilaah gue kalo sign in di keduanya musti invisible dulu. kalo si sodara tiri gue ini ga ada, yaaa gue online deh :D

anyway, tadi pacarnya nyokap kerumah. his name is Chuck. uh wait, his full name is Chuck Bass. yay, just like that Chuck Bass from Gossip Girl. satu pertanyaan dalam benak gue, kalo dia udah resmi jadi bokap gue, will my last name change into Bass? apakah nama gue bakal jadi Renata Bass? lols, sounds weird xD


oh yea, nyokap gue bisa buat yakiniku loh. ahaha tumbeeeen. akhirnya berhasil juga dia bikin, dan lumayan sih rasanya. dan kata Chuck juga, nyokap gue masakannya enak. 


satu lagi, tadi gue dikalahin main catur sama Chuck. oh geez, he's so damn smart. gara-gara kebanyakan main catur kali yea? pr liburan akhir taun gue aja ludes sama dia, ahaha. kalo gitu, sering-sering main ke rumah ya Chuck! :D


and the last, tadi sore gue ga jadi ke semaphore jetty sama Dave. yaa gara-gara ada Chuck di rumah. tadinya kita mau hunting foto bareng. Dave tetangga gue sih, gue tinggal buka jendela dan ngetok jendela dia. lols. 

oh iya, tadi gue udah make appointment sama dokter. gue harus check up kata nyokap -___- gatau tuh, padahal kayanya gue baik-baik aja. emang sih, gue akhir-akhir ini, bukan akhir-akhir ya. tapi emang tiap hari, insomnia. dan karena insomnia ini, gue jadi sering pusing and I got my nose bleeding. dia takut gue anemia katanya, tapi gue masih minum vitamin juga. yea emang dasar gue dablek aja, meski nose bleeding dan huge headache, tetep online deeh.



oh i should go to sleep earlier tonight, gue udah janji sama diri gue sendiri sih :D
biasanya gue bisa tidur jam 2-3 pagi




so,
bonne nuit et sommeil serré :D


xoxo